LG Faves: September 2019

TOLG September Favorites

These are some things I have been enjoying a lot lately so I wanted to share them here with all of you!

TV Show: Unbelievable on Netflix

I didn’t want to watch this show at first because I was scared to watch a story about such a heavy subject matter. It follows the violent rape of a young teen, Marie Adler, who is accused of lying about the rape by two male detectives who are very condescending and treat her poorly. It then goes on to follow a string of similar rapes that take place in Washington and Colorado and the two incredible female detectives who start investigating the similar crimes. I was so hooked to this show that I watched the entire thing in less than 24 hours. This is crazy for me because I rarely get hooked to shows, and usually prefer reading in the evening. This is the single best thing I have watched in the past few years. It was extremely educational, horrifying and moving. I highly recommend everyone, especially women, watch this powerful show.  

Food: Yogurt with fresh berries & granola

I know this sounds boring but it has been SO HOT in LA, that I have been craving very cooling foods. Yogurt with fresh berries and granola is one of the few things that actually sounds good most of the time. I eat this most days at home and even when I go out to breakfast I have been ordering this because it has been the most appealing to me. When I am feeling so hot and zapped of energy it’s hard for me to want eggs or anything cooked. Homemade granola really ups the yogurt game, and when the fruit is fresh and in season it’s delicious. Sometimes you crave simple and light, and this has done just the trick!

Nonfiction Book: Trick Mirror by Jia Tolentino

I was very excited for the release of this book in August. Jia Tolentino’s New Yorker articles are always my favorite to read. Her writing is sharp, relentlessly self-examining, horrifying, hopeful and brilliant. I very much enjoyed reading it and seeing her speak at Skylight Books. If you haven’t read Jia’s writing before, I highly recommend checking out her New Yorker articles or this book!

Fiction Book: City of Girls by Elizabeth Gilbert

I am flying out to Paris this Thursday and wanted to take a book on my trip that would be a delight to read. I did some research and City of Girls looked like the perfect book. I love Elizabeth Gilbert’s writing and the story is dazzling and fun. It's a love story that takes place in the New York City theater world during the 1940s. I am about a third of the way through right now and loving it so far.

Movement: Pop Physique

I am obsessed with Pop. Like completely hooked. I would go every day if I could. It’s a barre workout that is just so much more fun and hip than any of the other barre classes I have done. What I love about Pop is that I am always left feeling good and energized afterwards. I have done many workouts that don’t feel good on my body and leave me feeling completely depleted. Pop is the complete opposite for me. My body loves it and I have been seeing such great results. If you’re in LA or NYC — I HIGHLY recommend it.

Movie: Hustlers

I saw this movie yesterday and really liked it. I went into it skeptical and unsure of how I would feel about the story line, but I saw that it had good reviews and that showtime worked the best for us, so I figured — give it a shot. And I am so glad I did. The movie really surprised me, more than being a movie about strippers or revenge on Wall Street guys it felt like a story about strong female friendships and finding a family and a sense of belonging when you’ve been dealt a tough lot in life. I also felt like it was a different way of showing female strength and intelligence that didn’t involve trying to make it in a man’s world, which I really appreciated. It was an important story to be told and really blew me away.

How Reading Fiction Helped me with Recovery

Reading Fiction and Eating Disorder Recovery

A big part of recovery for me was finding activities that I enjoyed doing simply for pleasure on my free time. Hobbies that had nothing to do with weight loss, food, dieting or appearance. It was difficult at first – because I had been so focused on productivity, improvement and perfection – but with time I was able to find a few things that I did purely for joy and relaxation.

An important hobby that helped me with recovery and my overall happiness was: reading fiction novels. Reading simply to get lost in a good story. Prior to this, I was reading non-fiction, self-help or diet books, constantly trying to learn or find some sort of hack to make my life better.  

Fiction helped me escape and take a break.

There was also a very healthy element to reading stories where I couldn’t see what the people looked like. I wasn’t constantly being bombarded by unhealthy body image standards but instead being able to imagine and create my own make believe world. It’s an unfortunate truth that we don’t have inclusive messaging within the media, so reading helped me get away from all of that. It was a gift that helped me tremendously during recovery.

Here are some of my favorite fiction books that I read during this time. Some of these books are light-hearted women focused novels, some are more dramatic and serious, some are fantasy sci-fi novels, but they were all chosen from a place of wanting to read a fun, pleasurable story that completely transported me. If you’re looking for a great read, I am sure you will find something good in this list! Here they are:

Dune by Frank Herbert

Sweetbitter by Stephanie Danler

The Power by Naomi Alderman

My Brilliant Friend by Elena Ferrante

The Nightingale by Kristin Hannah

The Secret History by Donna Tartt

A Discovery of Witches by Deborah Harkness

The Thinking Woman’s Guide to Real Magic by Emily Croy Barker

This is Where I Leave You by Jonathan Tropper

Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine by Gail Honeyman

LG Faves: April 2019

LG Faves - March 2019

Hi friends! I am sorry I have been so MIA this past month. Things have been busy and I haven’t been able to sit down, settle my thoughts and write something out. I have gotten out of the habit, but I really miss it. I will be writing more soon, I promise. In the meantime here are some of the things I have been loving in March/April!

Music: Gabrielle Aplin

One of Gabrielle’s songs came up on a Spotify playlist I was listening to and I loved her voice and the song lyrics. I looked her up and then fell into a rabbit hole of her pretty, girly music. My favorite songs have been: Waking Up Slowly, Miss You and Nothing Really Matter.

TV shows: Shrill & Broad City

Shrill has been an incredible, refreshing show i have watched. i talked about how it has made me feel and why I’ve loved it here.

Broad City is a hilarious quirky show I can watch at any time of the day. I love seeing Ilana and Abbi’s ridiculous antics and how they are there for each other no matter what happens. The show always makes me laugh out loud and leaves me feeling good.

Food: Sweet Potato Crust Quiche

I love making this quiche at the beginning of the week and having it for brunch or lunch throughout the week. It is a nice way to switch up what I usually eat but I am still getting some great protein and vegetables. It is satisfying, easy to make and delicious. I loosely follow this recipe from Ambitious Kitchen but I make it in my own way — I don’t use the vegetable suggestions in her recipe, but instead my favorite combination is: red onion, spinach, zucchini and red bell pepper. I also love mushrooms instead of the zucchini sometimes. And, I don’t use egg whites, like the recipe suggests, but instead use about seven eggs, and I use whatever cheese I have on hand which has been: goat cheese, feta cheese, Daiya cheddar or mozzarella cheese.

Nonfiction Book: Attached by Amir Levine and Rachel Heller

My best friend HIGHLY recommended this book and I absolutely see why. It is a book that discusses attachment theory and how by understanding your attachment style you can navigate relationships more wisely given your style and that of your partner. It is “an insightful look at the science behind love, [so readers can have] a road map for building stronger, more fulfilling connections.”

Fiction Book: The Bell Jar

I started reading this classic novel and am enjoying it so far. I want to make my way through reading classic feminist texts so I knew this was a must read. The themes of mental health and feeling stuck in a patriarchal society always hit home for me so I am excited to continue reading it and sharing my thoughts.

LG Faves: February 2019

LG Faves February 2019

It’s time for some February favorites. Since I have been following my February intention of read more, stream + read online less, I have two books and no TV shows, lol! A big part of being able to read more is to not be addicted to a TV show. Anyways, I hope you find something interesting to check out below.

Food: Lavva Coconut Yogurt

Oh Lavva how I love thee! I have finally found a dairy free yogurt that I actually enjoy, doesn’t have tons of sugar, and the ingredient list is normal. I had been missing dairy yogurt because I grew up with my mom putting a dollop of yogurt or cottage cheese on so many things: fruit salads, oatmeal, granola, toast, etc, but as I got older I started having skin issues on my arms and we found out that it was linked to dairy so the yogurt had to go. I had been searching for a replacement but I didn’t enjoy the flavor of any of the ones on the market – until I found Lavva! It is delicious and the ingredient list and sugar content is amazing. I highly recommend checking it out if you have to find a dairy free yogurt alternative.

Nonfiction Book: What Made Maddy Run? by Kate Fagan

Oh this book! I have talked about it a lot now – you can read my takeaways from it here. I can’t recommend it enough. No matter who you are you will learn something and gain some empathy and understanding reading this powerful book.  

Fiction Book: The Thinking Woman’s Guide to Real Magic

This book is so much fun. It’s all about entering into a different magical world surrounded by magicians, kings, dragons, fairies, and I just loved it. It was a nice change from such a serious book (Maddy) and you find yourself falling into a wonderful fantasy hole that sweeps you away. If you’re looking for something fun this is the book for you. 

Music: Lizzo

Lizzo’s music is upbeat and empowering. She has an incredible voice and her music reminds me of powerful woman’s voices from the Motown, soul, disco era. It immediately puts me in a good mood and makes me want to dance, and I love that most of her lyrics focus on loving your body, embracing who you are, and strutting your stuff. It is refreshing! She just came out with a new song called Juice and her new album – Cuz I Love You – is coming out in April.

Clothing: Girlfriend Collective Bodysuits

I have been wearing these bodysuits for a while and can’t believe I haven’t mentioned them before! I love them. The brand – Girlfriend Collective – is amazing. They believe in slow fashion and only use ethical manufacturing and recycled materials for their clothing. The body suits are so soft and comfortable. The Lily bodysuit is my favorite so far, and I love that theres button snaps at the bottom so you don’t have to take the entire bodysuit off to go to the bathroom, makes life so much easier! They’re soft, comfortable, and flattering.

Movement: Running

I started running again after many years of having to avoid it because of recovery and it has been so special. I can’t believe how much I have missed it and am so grateful I was able to reintroduce this movement back into my life. I am going to write a longer post about this because there is much more tied with running and my eating disorder, but for now what I want to say is that I feel so profoundly happy that I have reached a point in my recovery where I can enjoy running again in a healthy way.

 Movie: The Boy Downstairs

I have always liked Zosia Mamet from her days on Girls and the column she wrote for Glamour. I find her very interesting and thoughtful so I enjoy following the work that she does. I recently saw this cute rom-com she did on HBO and enjoyed it. It was a quirky indie film but a nice light watch with a different storyline than the typical rom-coms and takes place in hipster Brooklyn which is always fun.

Content Diet

Content Diet

The things you read, people you follow, and the content you watch have a big impact on what you think and how you feel. It is the fuel you are putting into your brain, and just like the famous Buddha saying goes, “what you think, you become.”

An important part of self-care and recovery that isn’t discussed enough is the impact the information you are consuming is having on your wellbeing. Because we are living in an era of relentless connectivity and social media saturation, we need to protect ourselves, and an important way we can do that is by being very conscientious about what we are following and reading.

Content Diet

When I realized this I took a deep look into how the content I was consuming on a daily basis was making me feel, and then cleaned out all the junk I didn’t want making it’s way into my head.

I wanted to expose myself to things that lit me up and inspired me, not things that made me criticize myself or brought me down.

In my opinion, the only types of “diets” we should be talking about are: CONTENT DIETS. Just like if you eat nourishing foods you are going to feel energized, if you consume thought-provoking interesting content you are going to feel expanded.

For our mental health and well-being, it is very important that we be aware of how certain content makes us feel and to remove things that don’t align with our goals or help us feel our best.

Here are some of the tactics I have applied to my life to remove negative content that was making me feel good:

Social Media:

  • I don’t follow people that make me feel bad about myself

    • This can be someone I knew from college, a toxic friendship, or a wellness influencer – anything that makes me feel less than or that my situation just isn’t as good as theirs — is an unfollow.

  • Bloggers who are “super healthy” restrictive eaters

    • Nothing against them but that content isn’t healthy for me and it makes me start questioning what I am eating and I don’t need that — I want Recovery :)

  • Skinny models or photos posted with beauty/body ideals that aren’t aligned with what I want to believe in

    • I am working towards believing in beauty standards that are more realistic and accepting of all body shapes and sizes

    • Therefore models, especially VS models or bathing suit company models, are not the types of beauty ideals I want pushed upon me

  • Any accounts that I have found to be triggering, crude, or inappropriate

    • Sometimes these don’t even make sense but if the content feels triggering, gross or cruel in some way, it isn’t something I wan to be exposed to

Media/News:

  • I don’t follow any news outlets on social media and am not subscribed to any of their email marketing lists

    • I don’t want information pushed upon, rather I want to go to the websites and choose what I want to read

    • I pick the articles that I want to be reading

  • I don’t read the news every day

    • I know some people might find this irresponsible but my first priority is to take care of myself and A LOT of what is in the news is triggering and upsetting for me, so I choose to protect myself and not read this content every day

    • I will read the headlines every other day to be aware of developments, and then I will choose which stories look interesting to me

    • I listen to the NPR Up First podcast frequently because I find that way of consuming the news better for me.

  • Read more books & magazines

    • I have been going back to reading hard copy books and magazines because I am tired of how much of my time and attention can get hijacked by advertisements or various things popping up online

    • When I read a magazine article, I can sit and read the magazine article in peace and then move on and do something else without finding myself down an internet rabbit hole two hours later

    • I have a New Yorker subscription which I love — that is my favorite form of reading interesting, well-written articles

What Made Maddy Run – Thoughts on Depression & Suicide

What Made Maddy Run - Perfectionism, Suicide & Depression

I recently read the book – What Made Maddy Run by Kate Fagan. It was incredibly powerful and moved me deeply. I saw so much of myself in Maddy, and because of a few different choices, I am still here, whereas she is sadly not.

What Made Maddy Run is the story of Madison Holleran, an ambitious college athlete at UPenn who committed suicide her freshman year. The book discusses the story of Maddy’s life, and her struggle with depression, which also reveals the mounting pressures young people face to be perfect and constantly achieve, especially in an age of relentless connectivity and social media saturation.

This is an incredible book for anyone to read, especially those who want to gain a better understanding of mental illness, perfectionism, and how to help people who are struggling.

Here are some of the biggest takeaways I had on depression and suicide from the book (I also had thoughts on perfectionism I wanted to share, but this post go too long, so I will share that in a separate post):

Depression

Throughout the book, it is repeatedly mentioned that people couldn’t understand what had gone wrong, or how Maddy was so unhappy when everything was great in her life — loving parents, happy family, talented, smart, athletic, beautiful, popular. Depression and mental health issues — they don’t have a face! It can happen to and affect anyone, and some of the most depressed people have a seemingly “perfect” life. It is genetic, so trying to make sense of it is futile.

When someone tells you they aren’t doing well or if someone is having a rough day, be kind to them — you really don’t know what anyone is going through.

No one would ever have suspected I was severely depressed. I became an expert at going from crying to slapping on my happy, cheerful face and being vivacious Lili. I would tell my mom how I hated seeing people because I was so tired of faking it and would get annoyed when people would describe me as — Oh Lili is always so sweet and happy — I felt like such a fraud and so alone.

Suicide

This is something I haven’t opened up about before, but if this can help anyone, even just a single person, it is worth it to me.

I had a really tough time when I was about 25 years old. I would wake up with nothing that made me want to get out of bed. I hated my work and what my life had turned into. The climax of all of this was when I would show up at the office and couldn’t stop crying. Just crying and crying and no matter how much I tried to stop I couldn’t pull myself out of it. I would run outside and pretend like I was going to get a coffee and just stand in an alleyway and cry.

That was when the thought struck me – if this is what my life is going to be, I don’t want it.

I didn’t want this life. I was miserable and tired of being so deeply unhappy. I didn’t see a way out and thought I could no longer continue. It was a scary thought, but in an effort to be honest, I just wanted the suffering to end.

I called my mom and she connected me with a suicide hotline and I spoke to them. It was terrifying but it was the first step I took in getting help. They instructed me to go talk to HR and figure out a solution whether that be medical leave or intensive therapy. That is when I started seeing a therapist twice a week. I considered inpatient treatment – which I wish I would have done – but at the moment I was terrified of people finding out about it and thought it sounded too extreme.

I want to emphasize the point here that I didn’t look at it as killing myself, I saw it as ending the suffering because I didn’t see another way out. At this point I had been struggling with depression, anxiety and an eating disorder for over ten years and didn’t know how or if I ever would get better. I also hated my job but didn’t know what I wanted to do instead, I felt completely trapped.

I think  this is a helpful thing to note because people just look at suicide as killing yourself and that wasn’t at all how I saw it when I was in the midst of my darkest thoughts. I felt like I was already trapped in the hell of my daily life, and it seemed like it would provide a release.

In reading Maddy’s story I can see how she was miserable and unhappy and couldn’t see a way out. I relate to how she felt so utterly trapped and was suffering deeply that she just wanted it to end. When you are in such a dark place it is very difficult to think clearly or see other options, you feel extremely stuck and exhausted. You also don’t see time clearly, a week can feel like eternity, and you need help IMMEDIATELY. When my mom would tell me to just finish out the week at work, it felt like a mountain I couldn’t climb and it would infuriate me because I felt like she didn’t understand the gravity of my pain, you need help and for things to change right away because you are already at your wits end.

If you’re struggling with any of this get help now. Call the suicide hotline or talk to HR right away. Things truly can change today and there is a way out that doesn’t involve suicide or hurting yourself. That is what I wish I could tell Maddy if she was here today — that things can get better and she can get better. To take a break from school and get the help she needs right away so she can find her way out of that hell and start creating a life that makes her happy.

The Art That's Made Me

The art that’s made me

I listened to a fun podcast the other day on Let It Out with Katie Dalebout that was all about the the books, music, movies, tv shows, and media you grew up with which has helped shape you into who you are today. I thought it was an interesting idea, and of course it got me thinking about the pop culture, art, and media that have been meaningful in my life. 

Since I thought it was a fun topic, I wanted to share “The Art That’s Made Me,” here with all of you, and I hope it gets you thinking about this in your own life. What were the meaningful movies, TV shows, books, songs, etc, that you consumed in your life that have made an impact on the person you are today? It’s a cool thing to think about :) Here are mine:

Books

I didn’t enjoy reading when I was little — shocking, I know. It wasn’t until I was older, around 10-12 years old, that I started finding books I wanted to read.

I found World War II novels fascinating and I enjoyed reading stories about kids with special powers or in magical worlds. What can I say — I’ve always loved magic.

These are the first books I remember loving:

Number the Stars // The Giver // A Wrinkle in Time // The Chronicles of Narnia // The Harry Potter Series

Once I was in high school I started devouring books, and luckily most of them were required reading for my classes. The books that I remember had a big impact on me were:

The Stranger by Albert Camus // The Awakening by Kate Chopin // Franny and Zooey by JD Salinger // Siddhartha by Herman Hesse // Wuthering Heights by Emily Brontë // The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood

Movies

Like most children, the first movies I saw were Disney. I remember enjoying The Little Mermaid and Beauty and the Beast (like every other girl who grew up in the 90’s), but my favorites were other Disney movies and characters that weren’t as popular:

Tiger Lily and Tinkerbell in Peter Pan // Alice in Wonderland // Pocahontas // Bambi

I really enjoyed movies about animals, nature, and magical lands, although Bambi tore me to pieces, I loved those movies.

When I got older I enjoyed musicals and classic films, like: The Sound of Music // Newsies

Then I became obsessed with Audrey Hepburn and loved Roman Holiday // Sabrina // Breakfast at Tiffany’s

TV Shows

I grew up with an older brother so I had to watch a lot of the things he wanted to watch, which resulted in me enjoying more boy-ish tv shows — which is fine! Here are some of the shows I remember liking:

Captain Planet // Power Rangers // Ninja Turtles // Sailor Moon

As we got older, I remember watching these shows after school:

Saved by the Bell // Fresh Prince of Belair // Sabrina the Teenage Witch

AND:

The Simpsons — that’s how I become obsessed with Lisa Simpson, I loved how she was so much smarter than her older brother, Bart, and did her own thing within her crazy family. I had never seen a strong, smart, independent young female character like her, and she inspired me.

Once I got to high school I barely ever watched TV because I didn’t have any time.

Music

As a kid, I liked music with a lot of beat. I remember loving:

Ace of Base // ABBA // Selena // The Jackson 5 // Musicals: Disney music and the songs from The Sound of Music.

THEN I remember that my mom was given a CD by a band called Pink Martini, that I loved. My favorite song on the disc was a French song called Sympathique — which was all about smoking, lol! I had no idea what the words meant but I had all of them memorized and would just play it and sing it on repeat.

As I got older I started liking my own types of music and it was very girly, poppy, female driven or angsty music. I remember listening to:

Shakira in Spanish — her Pies Descalzos CD // Alanis Morissette // Spice Girls // Britney Spears // Avril Lavigne // Janet Jackson

LG Faves: January 2019

The Original LG January Favorites

It’s time for some January favorites! The first of the year :) I have discovered some amazing things that I am loving, so I am excited to share!

WORKOUT: Kait Hurley Move + Meditate

I am obsessed with Kait Hurley’s workouts because they leave you feeling SO GOOD. They provide a great mix of: mindfulness, toning, getting your heart rate up and being challenging, great stretches throughout that relieve tension and feel amazing, and then ending with a lovely meditation that helps you tune inward and cultivate presence. By the end you feel like you had an amazing workout and are also calmer and more present. I can’t say enough on how much I love this program. She has many different workout classes: fun toning high intensity workouts, mindful running workouts, yummy yoga flows, and guided meditations. I cancelled all of my workout class passes here in LA because I enjoy doing these workouts more.

WELLNESS: Ayurvedic Oil Pulling

I have become addicted to this habit because it leaves my teeth and mouth feeling amazing. It feels like conditioner for your gums and mouth. Basically oil pulling consists of swishing about 1 tbsp of Ayurvedic oil around in your mouth for a few minutes (making sure not to swallow any of it), then spitting it out into a trash can, and then rinsing your mouth with some warm water. Some directions say to swish the oil around in your mouth for 20 minutes — but that’s too long for me! I usually do it for about 7-10 minutes first thing in the morning. It leaves your mouth and breath feeling clean and refreshed, and also has tons of other benefits that you can find here. I know it sounds weird, but I highly recommend it!

BOOK: The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle

This book has been extremely helpful in managing my anxiety and overthinking. It feels like it is a handbook on taming mental activity and relieving you of pointless suffering. The way that Eckhart Tolle explains and breaks down all of the concepts is very powerful. It is also a spiritual book and has introduced me to new ideas I had never thought of or even fathomed that are very freeing. I highly recommend reading this book if you’re someone who struggles with anxiety, depression, overthinking, unhappiness, or pretty much anyone who wants to be more at peace, because it helps you live a more present, mindful, content life.

MAKE: Homemade Nut Milk

I started making homemade nut milks and have loved how creamy and delicious they are.  They upgrade everything you put them in — lattes, matcha tonics, oatmeal, smoothies, etc. I don’t always have the time to make it but when I do it makes me so happy. It is honestly very simple to make, it just takes some planning. My recipe is on my Instagram here if you’re interested!

MUSIC: My Winter - Fresh Playlist!

I made a Winter playlist a few weeks ago that I have been playing on repeat. I pulled this playlist together with the theme of fresh, fun, dance-y, melodic beats and a mix of some new stuff that I am enjoying at the moment. You can listen to it here!  

TV Show: Schitt’s Creek

My best friend told me about this show a few weeks ago and I have been watching it most nights ever since. It is hilarious and I love all of the characters. It is about an extremely wealthy family that loses all of their fortune so they are forced to live in a rural town and adapt to a whole new way of living. Throughout all of these changes, they go through so many hilarious situations that they have to deal with. The show is easy to watch and light-hearted which is exactly what I have been needing lately.

BEAUTY: Ilia True Skin Serum Foundation

I don’t like wearing much makeup, but as an actress I need to have a solid makeup routine. The only time I wear actual makeup is when I have an audition or am filming something, on other days I simply wear some moisturizer with SPF, curl my eyelashes, and a little blush. Anyways, in the past I had been wearing a very light, tinted moisturizer and it just wasn’t enough for on camera work, so I went into Blue Mercury to try out a few different foundations and discovered this incredible one from Ilia! Right away I loved it, it is natural and feels like I am not wearing anything, but provides great coverage. It’s moisturizing but it didn’t leave my skin looking very glowy and shiny the way a few of the other foundations did. Ilia is an incredible clean beauty brand, only using organic and natural ingredients. I am so happy I found this foundation that checks all the boxes for me!

The Original LG 2018 Favorites

The Original LG Favorites

As the year is coming to a close, here are some of my favorites from 2018. From favorite books and movies, to greatest memories and lessons learned, these are some of the things that comprised my roller coaster year. 

It’s nice to end off the year reflecting on the things that brought me joy and the lessons I learned; and then move forward into 2019!

Movie: Eighth Grade

Documentary: Won’t You Be My Neighbor – It’s about the life and legacy of Mr. Rogers

Fiction book: The Secret History by Donna Tartt

Nonfiction book: The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck by Mark Manson

Music: Seeing HAIM in concert with my best friend in Santa Barbara

Song: Look Up Child by Lauren Daigle

Podcast: Let It Out with Katie Dalebout

Drink: Matcha! That’s absolutely no surprise 🙃

Food: Honey Hi gluten-free sourdough bread with sunflower seed butter & banana - so simple but so good.

Dessert: Doughnuts from Donut Friend 🍩

Restaurant: Honey Hi

Adaptogen: Ashwagandha

Clothes: Leotards & Overalls

Activity: Hiking

App: Clue — period tracker app

Emoji: Heart with sparkles 💖

Random thing: Sending voice messages to my brother over Whatsapp. We would end up having full on back and forth conversations through them! He lives in Panama so it was a lovely way to stay in touch and hear his voice.

Inspirational woman: Deborah Hanekamp aka Mama Medicine

Learning: All about Digital Marketing 🤓

Acting Memory: Playing the lead role in my first film 🎬

Overall Memory: Hiking the English countryside with my mom

Learning moment: Rebuilding my relationship with my father and learning how to communicate with him.

Lesson learned: The power of honesty 💛

Word: Resilience 🦁

Powerful Recovery Books

Powerful Recovery Books

The holidays can be stressful and triggering for some of us who have struggled with eating disorders or mental health issues. We might be around people who have caused us pain in the past, be in an environment where we have suffered, or have a lack of control that is difficult to cope with.

That is why it’s imperative to show ourselves patience and love during this time. Be prepared with some self-care practices you can easily turn to when things get hard.

Some practices that help me are: walking outside, having my healthy feel good foods readily available, sticking to a schedule, drinking herbal tea, journaling, supportive podcasts, meditation, yoga and BOOKS.

Books have been an important part of my recovery. They provide support when I am going through a rough time, challenge my disordered thinking, and help me see things in a different light. They never fail to bring me peace, perspective and freedom.

I am always reading a great fiction book as well as an insightful nonfiction book that reminds me of the power of mindfulness, meditation and love.

Right now, I am reading The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle with my childhood best friend. It’s special to be reading along with a friend, and it’s a great way to keep in touch with her even though we live in different parts of the country.

Whether you are traveling, have some time off from work, or you’ll be relaxing at home, this is a wonderful time to pick up a great book. 

Here are a few powerful books that have helped me find solace and support through my recovery journey:

Women Food and God — Geneen Roth

Spirit Junkie — Gabrielle Bernstein

A Return to Love – Marianna Williamson

What I Know For Sure – Oprah

Healing Your Hungry Heart — Joanna Poppink

Intuitive Eating — Evelyn Tribole & Elise Resch