four days without a phone

The Original LG - Tough Times

I lost my phone four days ago. I left it in an Uber in Paris on the way to the airport and have now been living four days completely without a phone. Since it has been quite destabilizing I wanted to ramble on what has come up for me during this experience – and in case you’re wondering, no I still do not have a phone, lol.

It has been a strange and eye-opening experience. From my complete helplessness in being able to get it back (it was either getting on my flight or trying to find the phone), to having to surrender to being without it, to losing communication with the outside world (emails have been my main form of communication), and then dealing with how to get a new phone without having a phone to make phone calls with — it has been a serious practice in surrender and patience.

You don’t realize how much you rely on something until you do not have it, and our phones pretty much contain our lives nowadays.

On top of that, I was sick on my flight back from Paris with a cold and felt depleted when I got home. Then on Saturday I woke up with terrible cramps and got my period. It has felt like one thing after another!

I have felt disoriented and unsure of what to do with myself. Which made me realize: we truly are addicted to our phones. I have not thought of myself as a very phone dependent person, but this experience made me realize how real the addiction is.

I feel like I have gone through stages of withdrawal these past few days: it started with shock and disbelief, then anger and frustration, followed by sadness and isolation, and now finally release.

Friday and Saturday were the worst, but today I woke up and thought: well I have to go on without it.

I went out and did all the things I normally “needed” my phone to do. I went on a hike in complete silence, I drove around LA without google maps, picked up my boyfriend for lunch at the exact time we had agreed upon (no little timing changes or running late), read my New Yorker Magazine when I got a pedicure, took chances by going to places without knowing if they were open or not (and surprise - the library was closed) and then adjusting.

It has been strange, and I do feel like I am missing out in some weird way and was scared as a female doing things alone without any way of being able to reach out to someone if something went wrong, but after pushing through these discomforts, I am seeing the gift in it.

The freedom and space it has given me is lovely. I am not constantly bombarded by messages all throughout my day. When I am with someone, I give them my full attention, having nothing to pull at my thoughts or check on even for a second. When I am out and about, I am fully present. When I am at my apartment I have done things that are more introspective and nourishing - I have read interesting articles, read more of my books, and journaled each day. I have gone to sleep MUCH earlier each night. And I overall just feel calmer.

LG Faves: September 2019

TOLG September Favorites

These are some things I have been enjoying a lot lately so I wanted to share them here with all of you!

TV Show: Unbelievable on Netflix

I didn’t want to watch this show at first because I was scared to watch a story about such a heavy subject matter. It follows the violent rape of a young teen, Marie Adler, who is accused of lying about the rape by two male detectives who are very condescending and treat her poorly. It then goes on to follow a string of similar rapes that take place in Washington and Colorado and the two incredible female detectives who start investigating the similar crimes. I was so hooked to this show that I watched the entire thing in less than 24 hours. This is crazy for me because I rarely get hooked to shows, and usually prefer reading in the evening. This is the single best thing I have watched in the past few years. It was extremely educational, horrifying and moving. I highly recommend everyone, especially women, watch this powerful show.  

Food: Yogurt with fresh berries & granola

I know this sounds boring but it has been SO HOT in LA, that I have been craving very cooling foods. Yogurt with fresh berries and granola is one of the few things that actually sounds good most of the time. I eat this most days at home and even when I go out to breakfast I have been ordering this because it has been the most appealing to me. When I am feeling so hot and zapped of energy it’s hard for me to want eggs or anything cooked. Homemade granola really ups the yogurt game, and when the fruit is fresh and in season it’s delicious. Sometimes you crave simple and light, and this has done just the trick!

Nonfiction Book: Trick Mirror by Jia Tolentino

I was very excited for the release of this book in August. Jia Tolentino’s New Yorker articles are always my favorite to read. Her writing is sharp, relentlessly self-examining, horrifying, hopeful and brilliant. I very much enjoyed reading it and seeing her speak at Skylight Books. If you haven’t read Jia’s writing before, I highly recommend checking out her New Yorker articles or this book!

Fiction Book: City of Girls by Elizabeth Gilbert

I am flying out to Paris this Thursday and wanted to take a book on my trip that would be a delight to read. I did some research and City of Girls looked like the perfect book. I love Elizabeth Gilbert’s writing and the story is dazzling and fun. It's a love story that takes place in the New York City theater world during the 1940s. I am about a third of the way through right now and loving it so far.

Movement: Pop Physique

I am obsessed with Pop. Like completely hooked. I would go every day if I could. It’s a barre workout that is just so much more fun and hip than any of the other barre classes I have done. What I love about Pop is that I am always left feeling good and energized afterwards. I have done many workouts that don’t feel good on my body and leave me feeling completely depleted. Pop is the complete opposite for me. My body loves it and I have been seeing such great results. If you’re in LA or NYC — I HIGHLY recommend it.

Movie: Hustlers

I saw this movie yesterday and really liked it. I went into it skeptical and unsure of how I would feel about the story line, but I saw that it had good reviews and that showtime worked the best for us, so I figured — give it a shot. And I am so glad I did. The movie really surprised me, more than being a movie about strippers or revenge on Wall Street guys it felt like a story about strong female friendships and finding a family and a sense of belonging when you’ve been dealt a tough lot in life. I also felt like it was a different way of showing female strength and intelligence that didn’t involve trying to make it in a man’s world, which I really appreciated. It was an important story to be told and really blew me away.

How Reading Fiction Helped me with Recovery

Reading Fiction and Eating Disorder Recovery

A big part of recovery for me was finding activities that I enjoyed doing simply for pleasure on my free time. Hobbies that had nothing to do with weight loss, food, dieting or appearance. It was difficult at first – because I had been so focused on productivity, improvement and perfection – but with time I was able to find a few things that I did purely for joy and relaxation.

An important hobby that helped me with recovery and my overall happiness was: reading fiction novels. Reading simply to get lost in a good story. Prior to this, I was reading non-fiction, self-help or diet books, constantly trying to learn or find some sort of hack to make my life better.  

Fiction helped me escape and take a break.

There was also a very healthy element to reading stories where I couldn’t see what the people looked like. I wasn’t constantly being bombarded by unhealthy body image standards but instead being able to imagine and create my own make believe world. It’s an unfortunate truth that we don’t have inclusive messaging within the media, so reading helped me get away from all of that. It was a gift that helped me tremendously during recovery.

Here are some of my favorite fiction books that I read during this time. Some of these books are light-hearted women focused novels, some are more dramatic and serious, some are fantasy sci-fi novels, but they were all chosen from a place of wanting to read a fun, pleasurable story that completely transported me. If you’re looking for a great read, I am sure you will find something good in this list! Here they are:

Dune by Frank Herbert

Sweetbitter by Stephanie Danler

The Power by Naomi Alderman

My Brilliant Friend by Elena Ferrante

The Nightingale by Kristin Hannah

The Secret History by Donna Tartt

A Discovery of Witches by Deborah Harkness

The Thinking Woman’s Guide to Real Magic by Emily Croy Barker

This is Where I Leave You by Jonathan Tropper

Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine by Gail Honeyman

LG Faves: April 2019

LG Faves - March 2019

Hi friends! I am sorry I have been so MIA this past month. Things have been busy and I haven’t been able to sit down, settle my thoughts and write something out. I have gotten out of the habit, but I really miss it. I will be writing more soon, I promise. In the meantime here are some of the things I have been loving in March/April!

Music: Gabrielle Aplin

One of Gabrielle’s songs came up on a Spotify playlist I was listening to and I loved her voice and the song lyrics. I looked her up and then fell into a rabbit hole of her pretty, girly music. My favorite songs have been: Waking Up Slowly, Miss You and Nothing Really Matter.

TV shows: Shrill & Broad City

Shrill has been an incredible, refreshing show i have watched. i talked about how it has made me feel and why I’ve loved it here.

Broad City is a hilarious quirky show I can watch at any time of the day. I love seeing Ilana and Abbi’s ridiculous antics and how they are there for each other no matter what happens. The show always makes me laugh out loud and leaves me feeling good.

Food: Sweet Potato Crust Quiche

I love making this quiche at the beginning of the week and having it for brunch or lunch throughout the week. It is a nice way to switch up what I usually eat but I am still getting some great protein and vegetables. It is satisfying, easy to make and delicious. I loosely follow this recipe from Ambitious Kitchen but I make it in my own way — I don’t use the vegetable suggestions in her recipe, but instead my favorite combination is: red onion, spinach, zucchini and red bell pepper. I also love mushrooms instead of the zucchini sometimes. And, I don’t use egg whites, like the recipe suggests, but instead use about seven eggs, and I use whatever cheese I have on hand which has been: goat cheese, feta cheese, Daiya cheddar or mozzarella cheese.

Nonfiction Book: Attached by Amir Levine and Rachel Heller

My best friend HIGHLY recommended this book and I absolutely see why. It is a book that discusses attachment theory and how by understanding your attachment style you can navigate relationships more wisely given your style and that of your partner. It is “an insightful look at the science behind love, [so readers can have] a road map for building stronger, more fulfilling connections.”

Fiction Book: The Bell Jar

I started reading this classic novel and am enjoying it so far. I want to make my way through reading classic feminist texts so I knew this was a must read. The themes of mental health and feeling stuck in a patriarchal society always hit home for me so I am excited to continue reading it and sharing my thoughts.

Cool Things I've Seen Recently

Cool things I’ve seen recently

I’ve read/seen/listened to some interesting stuff on the inter-webs recently that I wanted to share. They have been thought provoking, inspiring, and fun. Hope you enjoy!

Inspiring

New York Times Article - Jenna Wortham on the Exhilarating Work That Leaves Her ‘Naked and Shivering’

TED Talk - Multipotentialites: Why some of us don't have one true calling | Emilie Wapnick

Thought-provoking

New York Times Opinion Piece: Don’t Let Sex Distract you from the Revolution

Pardon My French Podcast — Escaping Expectations with Hayley Quinn

TED talk — Searching for love to escape ourselves | Hayley Quinn

Giggles

Lets end things off with a good laugh — here are two videos that made me LOL:

SNL Weekend Update: Pete Davidson & John Mulaney Review Clint Eastwood's The Mule

James Corden: The David Beckham Statue Prank

LG Faves: February 2019

LG Faves February 2019

It’s time for some February favorites. Since I have been following my February intention of read more, stream + read online less, I have two books and no TV shows, lol! A big part of being able to read more is to not be addicted to a TV show. Anyways, I hope you find something interesting to check out below.

Food: Lavva Coconut Yogurt

Oh Lavva how I love thee! I have finally found a dairy free yogurt that I actually enjoy, doesn’t have tons of sugar, and the ingredient list is normal. I had been missing dairy yogurt because I grew up with my mom putting a dollop of yogurt or cottage cheese on so many things: fruit salads, oatmeal, granola, toast, etc, but as I got older I started having skin issues on my arms and we found out that it was linked to dairy so the yogurt had to go. I had been searching for a replacement but I didn’t enjoy the flavor of any of the ones on the market – until I found Lavva! It is delicious and the ingredient list and sugar content is amazing. I highly recommend checking it out if you have to find a dairy free yogurt alternative.

Nonfiction Book: What Made Maddy Run? by Kate Fagan

Oh this book! I have talked about it a lot now – you can read my takeaways from it here. I can’t recommend it enough. No matter who you are you will learn something and gain some empathy and understanding reading this powerful book.  

Fiction Book: The Thinking Woman’s Guide to Real Magic

This book is so much fun. It’s all about entering into a different magical world surrounded by magicians, kings, dragons, fairies, and I just loved it. It was a nice change from such a serious book (Maddy) and you find yourself falling into a wonderful fantasy hole that sweeps you away. If you’re looking for something fun this is the book for you. 

Music: Lizzo

Lizzo’s music is upbeat and empowering. She has an incredible voice and her music reminds me of powerful woman’s voices from the Motown, soul, disco era. It immediately puts me in a good mood and makes me want to dance, and I love that most of her lyrics focus on loving your body, embracing who you are, and strutting your stuff. It is refreshing! She just came out with a new song called Juice and her new album – Cuz I Love You – is coming out in April.

Clothing: Girlfriend Collective Bodysuits

I have been wearing these bodysuits for a while and can’t believe I haven’t mentioned them before! I love them. The brand – Girlfriend Collective – is amazing. They believe in slow fashion and only use ethical manufacturing and recycled materials for their clothing. The body suits are so soft and comfortable. The Lily bodysuit is my favorite so far, and I love that theres button snaps at the bottom so you don’t have to take the entire bodysuit off to go to the bathroom, makes life so much easier! They’re soft, comfortable, and flattering.

Movement: Running

I started running again after many years of having to avoid it because of recovery and it has been so special. I can’t believe how much I have missed it and am so grateful I was able to reintroduce this movement back into my life. I am going to write a longer post about this because there is much more tied with running and my eating disorder, but for now what I want to say is that I feel so profoundly happy that I have reached a point in my recovery where I can enjoy running again in a healthy way.

 Movie: The Boy Downstairs

I have always liked Zosia Mamet from her days on Girls and the column she wrote for Glamour. I find her very interesting and thoughtful so I enjoy following the work that she does. I recently saw this cute rom-com she did on HBO and enjoyed it. It was a quirky indie film but a nice light watch with a different storyline than the typical rom-coms and takes place in hipster Brooklyn which is always fun.

Content Diet

Content Diet

The things you read, people you follow, and the content you watch have a big impact on what you think and how you feel. It is the fuel you are putting into your brain, and just like the famous Buddha saying goes, “what you think, you become.”

An important part of self-care and recovery that isn’t discussed enough is the impact the information you are consuming is having on your wellbeing. Because we are living in an era of relentless connectivity and social media saturation, we need to protect ourselves, and an important way we can do that is by being very conscientious about what we are following and reading.

Content Diet

When I realized this I took a deep look into how the content I was consuming on a daily basis was making me feel, and then cleaned out all the junk I didn’t want making it’s way into my head.

I wanted to expose myself to things that lit me up and inspired me, not things that made me criticize myself or brought me down.

In my opinion, the only types of “diets” we should be talking about are: CONTENT DIETS. Just like if you eat nourishing foods you are going to feel energized, if you consume thought-provoking interesting content you are going to feel expanded.

For our mental health and well-being, it is very important that we be aware of how certain content makes us feel and to remove things that don’t align with our goals or help us feel our best.

Here are some of the tactics I have applied to my life to remove negative content that was making me feel good:

Social Media:

  • I don’t follow people that make me feel bad about myself

    • This can be someone I knew from college, a toxic friendship, or a wellness influencer – anything that makes me feel less than or that my situation just isn’t as good as theirs — is an unfollow.

  • Bloggers who are “super healthy” restrictive eaters

    • Nothing against them but that content isn’t healthy for me and it makes me start questioning what I am eating and I don’t need that — I want Recovery :)

  • Skinny models or photos posted with beauty/body ideals that aren’t aligned with what I want to believe in

    • I am working towards believing in beauty standards that are more realistic and accepting of all body shapes and sizes

    • Therefore models, especially VS models or bathing suit company models, are not the types of beauty ideals I want pushed upon me

  • Any accounts that I have found to be triggering, crude, or inappropriate

    • Sometimes these don’t even make sense but if the content feels triggering, gross or cruel in some way, it isn’t something I wan to be exposed to

Media/News:

  • I don’t follow any news outlets on social media and am not subscribed to any of their email marketing lists

    • I don’t want information pushed upon, rather I want to go to the websites and choose what I want to read

    • I pick the articles that I want to be reading

  • I don’t read the news every day

    • I know some people might find this irresponsible but my first priority is to take care of myself and A LOT of what is in the news is triggering and upsetting for me, so I choose to protect myself and not read this content every day

    • I will read the headlines every other day to be aware of developments, and then I will choose which stories look interesting to me

    • I listen to the NPR Up First podcast frequently because I find that way of consuming the news better for me.

  • Read more books & magazines

    • I have been going back to reading hard copy books and magazines because I am tired of how much of my time and attention can get hijacked by advertisements or various things popping up online

    • When I read a magazine article, I can sit and read the magazine article in peace and then move on and do something else without finding myself down an internet rabbit hole two hours later

    • I have a New Yorker subscription which I love — that is my favorite form of reading interesting, well-written articles

Favorite 2018 Articles

TOLG Favorite 2018 Articles

I wrote up my list of 2018 favorites but as you might have noticed, I did not include my favorite articles in that list. The truth is that I had too many to choose only one or two! I knew I would have to dedicate a full post to the subject so I could share the variety of great articles that I read this past year.

As you will see in the list I like to read different topics from a few different sources. My favorite outlet would be The New Yorker though because in my opinion they have the most interesting well-written articles. Plus my brother has a subscription that he always lets me use :)

So without further ado, here they are in no particular order. Hope you find something interesting to read this weekend!

Profiles:

Julia Louis-Dreyfus Acts Out – The New Yorker

Riz Ahmed Acts His Way Out of Every Cultural Pigeonhole – The New York Times Magazine

Nicole Holofcener’s Human Comedies – The New Yorker

Donald Glover Can’t Save You – The New Yorker

Feminism:

Rebecca Solnit: Whose Story (and Country) Is This? – Literary Hub

Rebecca Solnit: Protest and Persist: Why Giving Up Hope is Not an Option – The Guardian

Lena Dunham on Her Decision to Have a Hysterectomy at Age 31 – Vogue

Social/Political Issues:

When Deportation is a Death Sentence – The New Yorker

The Birth of a New American Aristocracy – The Atlantic

Why Are the Poor Blamed and Shamed for their Deaths? By Barbara Ehrenreich – The Guardian

Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez, In Her Own Words — JACOBIN

‘Our Minds Can Be Hijacked’: The Tech Insiders Who Fear a Smartphone Dystopia — The Guardian

Spirituality & Health:

When Anorexics Grow Up — The New York Times 

Mama Medicine: How Deciding I Was Enough Transformed My Life — Well + Good

Why Perfectionism Is On The Rise and How To Overcome It — Goop

Powerful Recovery Books

Powerful Recovery Books

The holidays can be stressful and triggering for some of us who have struggled with eating disorders or mental health issues. We might be around people who have caused us pain in the past, be in an environment where we have suffered, or have a lack of control that is difficult to cope with.

That is why it’s imperative to show ourselves patience and love during this time. Be prepared with some self-care practices you can easily turn to when things get hard.

Some practices that help me are: walking outside, having my healthy feel good foods readily available, sticking to a schedule, drinking herbal tea, journaling, supportive podcasts, meditation, yoga and BOOKS.

Books have been an important part of my recovery. They provide support when I am going through a rough time, challenge my disordered thinking, and help me see things in a different light. They never fail to bring me peace, perspective and freedom.

I am always reading a great fiction book as well as an insightful nonfiction book that reminds me of the power of mindfulness, meditation and love.

Right now, I am reading The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle with my childhood best friend. It’s special to be reading along with a friend, and it’s a great way to keep in touch with her even though we live in different parts of the country.

Whether you are traveling, have some time off from work, or you’ll be relaxing at home, this is a wonderful time to pick up a great book. 

Here are a few powerful books that have helped me find solace and support through my recovery journey:

Women Food and God — Geneen Roth

Spirit Junkie — Gabrielle Bernstein

A Return to Love – Marianna Williamson

What I Know For Sure – Oprah

Healing Your Hungry Heart — Joanna Poppink

Intuitive Eating — Evelyn Tribole & Elise Resch

The Original LG Gift Guide

I thought it would be fun to share some of my favorite things from the last year + some fun gift ideas for yourself or loved ones. If you’re into wellness, self-care or sustainability – you will definitely find something interesting.

These are lovely gifts because they encourage you to slow down and take some time for yourself while also helping the environment. I hope something on this list supports you or a loved one to feel your best. And of course there are some fun ideas to round it out. Happy Holidays!

The Original LG Gift Guide

Stojo Cup

Stojo is a collapsible coffee cup that fits in your pocket. Stojo makes it SO easy for you to reduce the amount of disposable cups that you consume because you can carry it around anywhere. It’s easy to use, easy to pack AND it’s really cute. You’ll be be glad that you aren’t using any plastic or paper cups because your Stojo looks so much cooler. 

Metal Straw & Case

You already know how much I love metal straws – such an easy way to reduce the amount of plastic trash that we are throwing into the world. Giving someone a metal straw with a cute case is a fun gift that everyone can use.

Ippodo Matcha

You can never have too much Matcha :) Ippodo is my absolute favorite so obviously this is on the list.

Willowvane Mugs

These ceramic mugs are beautiful. I love unique pieces that are handmade and that support local artists and small businesses. Having a warm cup of tea or matcha during the colder months is very nourishing, and the only thing that makes it better is drinking it in a special mug.

Hoop Earrings from Jennifer Fisher

I LOVE wearing hoops. I am addicted at the moment. I have a bunch that are kind of cheap so the one fancy gift I am coveting is a nice pair of hoops. I love these from Jennifer Fisher.

15 Ways to Self Love Print from Society 6

This is a lovely image with wonderful self love practices. We can never have too many reminders of ways we can show ourselves some love. I think this print would look cute in your bathroom or kitchen.

Volcano Candle from Anthropologie

I love the Capri Blue Volcano candle from Anthropologie. Its been my favorite for a few years now. It gives a room such a warm elegant scent and looks pretty in the iridescent jar it comes in and it is a great price! You can’t go wrong with this one.

Journey to the Heart Daily Meditations by Melody Beattie

This is a lovey daily meditations book that I read each morning. It has a passage for each day that always has a warm insightful message. There is so much wisdom in each daily reflection and it always brings me peace. I have had this book for two years now, and I still find it very helpful. I will continue to use it next year as well.